Mommy-yeoh

 THE NEW BEGINNING Ringing in 2025 with a new sense of hope. It has been a truly long struggle.  May 2025 bring a new beginning, perhaps not a resolution but a new aim in life May fruitfulness and vitality lies in my relationship with God Psalms 1: 6:  Lord thank you for your wonderful promises as i resolve to make a regular habit of delighting in your word and meditating on it.

I am tired today, maybe I will pray tomorrow. Aww, today it's such a tiring day, perhaps I can do later. I have too much to do, I am sure God understand, let me just rest. It's ok, I am sure the children are praying by themselves, I just needed to rest. Before I know it, days turned to weeks, weeks turned to months and months turned to years.... that's how long I have not spend time alone with the One that has saved me and love me till this very day. I have neglected my time with Him and I have stopped "growing" in Him. There are many times, He gave me little nudges but I ignore my Lord. My precious Father. Today, I am reminded that we can be on a slippery road and before we know it, we will slipe downwards faster than we can think! Psalm 141 shows how we can easily find ourselves slipping down sin’s slope. Prayer is one of the ways we stay alert to those slopes: “Do not let my heart be drawn to what is evil” (v. 4) is a plea that echoes the Lord’s P...

This morning when I woke up, a sudden thought came to me. It seems that I have lost my focus, took my eyes off from the ONE reason why I chose a different career. Instead I looked back at my decision and constantly wondering if I had made the right decision with the big "What if..." I was once told, when the Lord has shown me the way, I am not to look back but run...how true are these words because indeed I did look back. When I reminded of my focus, how broken I feel because I lost sight of Him, the Great I Am that loves me, provided for me and have carry me over mountains, valleys and the dessert. Today I want to refocus on Him, to fix my eyes on Jesus, knowing that if I abide in Him, He will abide in me and will watch and provide for me. Let there be no doubts, fear and worries for He will indeed will take care of my family and I, just as He always have, even without me asking or knowing. Thank you Lord for everything...

In this world, we have certain expectations. We expect the best to remain the best. We expect the first to remain the first...ALWAYS...because we rely on our abilities, our confidence, knowing that we can do what we do best. In having confidence in ourselves, we began to focus on our abilities, focus on ourselves and may perhaps lead us to self-centeredness... Before we began we formed the results in our head. We seem to know if we can do it or we can't. *Today's Our Daily Bread speaks of the spellbinding moment in the 2018 Winter Olympics was when the Czech Republic’s world champion snowboarder Ester Ledecka won an event in a completely different sport: skiing! And she took the first-place gold medal even though she had the unenviable position of skiing 26th—a feat believed to be basically impossible. Amazingly, Ledecka qualified to race the women’s super-G—an event that combines downhill skiing with a slalom course. After she won by .01 of a second on borrowed ski...

This morning I woke up wondering if I have made the right decision when for every decision I made now it doesn't just affect me alone but to the ones that I love deeply. Sometimes fear grips me...most times I am at a crossroad choosing between what I want to do and what is best for the all... What happens when things doesn't go my way...I will began to lose focus and whine, and probably lose my faith... But I failed to see that His Hands in all... Today,  I am reminded that all blessings are in fact borrowed... As we bowed our heads over lunch, my friend Jeff prayed: “Father, thank You for letting us breathe Your air and eat Your food.” Jeff had just been through a difficult job loss, so his heartfelt trust in God and recognition that everything belongs to Him profoundly moved me. I found myself thinking: Do I honestly understand that even the most basic, everyday things in my life are really God’s, and He’s simply letting me use them? When King David ...

I am fully employed in the corporate world and "motherhood". There are times I am so worn out from my jobs, I begin to be weary and tired. I will whine and complain and will be irritated easily. I began to lose the focus on the joy that I once found and forgotten why I wanted to do what I did. Today's reading reminded me that in all I do, I do it for the Lord and not take it for granted... "Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord."

Results are often not immediate. Sometime, we don't even see it! Do we do what we do so that we get the results we want? What happens when we don't see it? Will we stop doing it? Will we stop believing in what we do? Paul explained to the church in Galatia, however, that “a man reaps what he sows” (Galatians 6:7). But we must “not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest” (v. 9). Doing good isn’t the way to gain salvation, and the text doesn’t specify whether what we reap will be now or in heaven, but we can be assured that there will be “a harvest of blessing” (6:9 nlt). We may not see the results not, or may think that it's worthless. But so long as we believed what we do is right and in line with His perfect will, that is all it matters. Don't give up, because blessings will come.

This morning was unlike any other mornings. Today a thought came to me and I decided to log into my blog, while after all these years, I have completely forgotten that it ever existed. Looking back on some of the postings, brought me back down to memory lane of the things I did and the person I was. It has been years shelving this blog! Things have changed so much since. Little Princess and Baby J is no longer who they used to be. So have I. More silver lining on the hair and fine lines on the face, telling a story of how life have moved on so fast and so quick, that sometimes, I have forgotten to stop and smell the roses! Perhaps then, its time that I dust the dust off my blog once again...

Baby J is 9 months and 2 days old. And had his very first hair cut yesterday. I did a quick 'chop' of his hair while he was busy occupying himself with toys. His hair was getting a bit too long at the sides and beginning to curl a little. Some people commented that he looked like a girl! Can't say I did a fantastic job on the haircut but so long as he doesn't look like a girl is good enough for me. To me, Baby J is growing so much faster than Little Princess. I guess being busy at work and home, I don't realised how much time has passed me by. It only seems like yesterday that I was pregnant with Baby J. It wasn't an easy pregnancy. With a 4 yo on toll, it literally took my sanity away. It was filled with mood swings and morning sickness (round the clock)! I stare at the toilet 'throne' more than I stare into Daddy-yeoh's face! I felt bloated all the time and shortness of breath was a norm to me. Since Little Princess was an induced labor, I only get...

Baby J arrived early October, 18 days earlier than the due date. He weight exactly the same as Little Princess when she was born. Being 4 years older and having to juggle a newborn and a preschool kid, things were pretty rough and filled with lots of *pulling hair* moments. There is no such thing as settling in with the baby. Life becomes instantenously busy and insane. 'Me-Time' became a thing almost-impossible-to-achieve and even if I could enjoy it, it is an oh-so precious-moment! Baby J is 5 months plus and another 2 weeks or so, he will be 6. As time pass, he grow into different stages where work and more work for mommy adds on. Sounds like a complain? Perhaps :) Despite all, Baby J brings such joy to us. He hardly fuss except for milk and when he is sleepy. He loves to smile. He smiles at you when he wakes up, He smiles at you when you talk to him, He smiles at you when you sing to him, He smiles at you when you play with him, He smiles at you when you change his diaper, ...

Our baby should be due anytime now. Little Princess was early by 10 days, so we are expecting an early delivery. My doc said that he will be expecting my call anytime from now. I feel heavy and walking is almost impossible. I am not sure if I could wait till his actual delivery date which is on the 27 October. I hope that he will arrive really really SOON!

I noticed that I have more white hair growing on my head. I had that when I was pregnant with the Little Princess and it never did went away. Now with the second pregnancy, it added to the existing ones and this time more obvious than before. I was checking out the whites on my black hair in the bathroom mirror one day when I noticed how the white hair reflected in the sunlight from the window. It may sound strange, but they looked like shiny silver strings glittering away on my head. Now I understood the meaning of silver lining in every dark cloud :)

Just went I thought Little Princess is out growing her cough, she got it again yesterday with the phelgm and all. The doc tor siad its due to her underdeveloped breathing track and coupled with my family history of asthmatic genes, she can be sensitive to anything under the sun including dust. The doctor assured us that this is common among children and they will grow out of it. The bright side, her condition is not serious enough to be out on a chamber. But the BIG question is when will she grow out of it??? I tried all sorts of methods from western to chinese (and even trying suggestions found in forwarded emails) but the cough keeps coming back every 2 weeks or so. The most difficult part was each time she has her cough, she will vomit all her milk or meals. The mess, oh how I hate the mess! And each time she has the cough in the night, I can never have a good rest because I will be waking up and checking on her throughout the night, making sure she is fine. Has anyone had such p...

Took Little Princess for a quick shopping while waiting for Daddy-yeoh who went for a hair cut. Came to the 'Party Princess' store in Mid Valley and saw a tray of little kid's rings for sale. Little Princess took a peek and I asked if she wanted one. She said yes and Mummy gave her the freedom to choose one that she likes. She looked at it from row to row and pick one at a time and wear it on her middle finger. Each time she put one on she will say "Hmm..this is nice". and it went on with a few other rings until she finally settled down with a shape of an Oreo cookie except it's pink. She took it home and wore it on her middle finger and said this aloud to her Daddy... "When I grow up I want to marry you!" That made me smiled. What made you smile today?

Baby bump is a little much more now that I am hitting my fifth month. Detailed scan showed Baby is doing well. He weight about 450 grammes for now... and yes its a HE :). I guess that balanced up the number of genders in the Yeoh's residence. On the other hand, the Little Princess is growing fine. She loves her preschool and her teacher. Had assessment (exam) in late May. Mummy was at lost not sure what or how to prepare her for the exam since she is ( yet ) four years old. Decided just to let her be, if she knows the answers to her exam, then good but if she does not, that is fine with me too. But suprisingly, Mummy got the pressure from Grandma, asking how is she coping and whether Mummy will be doing revision with her! I said no as I have no plans at all. And guess what, lo and behold, Grandma checked her schedule on the time and day of the exam and the topics and came up with a 'revision-time-plan' for her a week before the exam. I guess its fine with me so long as she ...

Little Princess and I were watching Tarzan II on Disney Channel last night… Little Princess : Why is Tarzan so sad? Mummy : Because no one wanted him Little Princess : Why no one wanted him? Mummy : Because he is different from the rest (apes) Little Princess : But we must love all our friends and make them happy. We must smile like this (used her index fingers and pushed the sides of lips upwards) at them and it will make them (friends) happy. That made Mummy smiled today...

Our Little Miracle did not feel like a miracle to me for the past 2 months. I experienced nothing but ( and still is !) morning sickness from the time I woke up to the time I lay my head to rest… I am constantly tired, fatigue and brain-dead! And I am depress every day. I get annoyed easily and will snap at almost everyone at home. Poor Little Princess has to endure Mummy’s madness and I think ( believed so ) that she is a little afraid of me. But I know she tried her best to make me smile… She will make funny faces at me and asked me if it is funny. She will stand outside the bathroom door whenever I was throwing my guts out and will wait till I finished and extend a tissue to me. She will ask if I am OK whenever I my face turn green before throwing up. We had a little chat the night before…telling her how sorry I was to have yelled and screamed at her because I was not well. She said I must promise not to yell and not sream and not to scold. I said I agree to all but I am still allow...

A little miracle...will be due on 24 October 2010

The Lord promised that He will be there through stormy weathers and calm the storm. But if you were in a boat in the middle of nowhere and have nothing to hold on while being caught in the middle of a storm, how strong will your faith be? Fear may terrorize you and the feeling of desperation may overwhelmed you. My family is going through a storm of our own but just as we are helping one another to get on our feet, we are swept off once again with a storm which drains us out even more. The feeling of betrayal and brokeness shattered the very foundation which love and trust had once stood on. Hope is all we need... in these stormy days... LORD, I NEED a big dose of hope today. None of the pie-in-the-sky kind. Not even a pretty-sure guess. I need the real kind of hope that brings lightness to a heavy day. I am tired of gritting my teeth, trying to swallow the pain that is my reality. When I look back on my life, I see how you proved faithful time after time. There were moments I thought...

Little Lady has not asked to be breastfed for more than 2 weeks. Instead of telling me "Mummy I want milk" she now says "Mummy make milk". Part of me would love to celebrate for successfully weaning her off without much hasssle but part of me missed those 'moments' together. Those quiet moments of watching her, talking to her and singing lullaby. She is growing more independent each day. And so does her confidence. She would go for her Sunday classes, participating in all activities without having to hold my hands like how she used to. She will sit on the floor (or on a chair) on her own listening to the teachers telling stories to the class while her peers will sit on the laps of their parents. She will tell me what she wants and will carefully choose options placed before her. She takes instructions well and yes she still whines which could drive me up the wall at times! Thinsg that she used to be afraid off now no longer scares her. She has learned to ...